After reading the list in my last post about all the not so typical things one mother is grateful for regarding her children, I felt like I should confess some of my ungrateful behaviors over the last couple days.
Like I said before I do love my children more than I have ever imagined being able to love anything, but I am not a patient person. I am also not usually a very flexible person, so when I get an idea in my head or have a vision of the way a certain event should go, its hard for me to accept anything different. So over the weekend when I had an opportunity to get a good deal on holiday photo cards I threw the kids into their outfits (which I have had set aside for the past month or two especially for Christmas pictures) and set them up in the living room expecting perfectly posed portraits of the two. Ha.
I really am ashamed to admit how frustrated I got with my 2 month old and three year old for not looking right in their pictures! Jack would put on this cheesy, toothy grin with his nose wrinkled up and eyes shut tight, while I tried to move Harper into some position that hid at least a couple of her chins. I was so busy and worried about making them look like the kids you see in magazines that I couldn't even see how beautiful and amazing they actually are. Cheesy and Chunky :)
I am making sound silly and it was, in the midst of my scolding and re-positioning I did laugh a little bit, but I really wish I would learn to enjoy these moments more and not try so hard to make every thing fit into the mold I have in my head. There are so many things I can learn from them if I would just admit that I don't know it all already. My kids are who they are and I wouldn't want them any other way. I just wanted to post a few of the shots I did get and say that I am grateful for these adorable, perfect blessings I am so lucky to have in my life.
